A friend gave me a book a few years ago called “Managing to be Free”. It was about getting organized and setting priorities as a Christian woman. I think the time has come to read it again!
One of the concepts that really stood out in my mind was the question of whether I am a thermostat or a thermometer – Do I set the atmosphere in my home or do I simply react? These days I am really a thermometer - and I really need to work on that.
Steve is still not feeling well – the doctor has given him something for the tingling sensations but it isn’t as effective as he wants. He is not sleeping well so he was also given a prescription for amitriptyline – which used to be called Elavil. It is actually an anti-depressant but can be used as a sleeping aid. He is supposed to start by taking one pill a night and he can keep adding pills – as soon as it helps, he is supposed to stop at that dosage, until he reaches a max of 15 a night. After about 4 nights he decided it wasn’t working! What this means is that he doesn’t sleep at night so he is napping on and off all day.
On Sunday, I decided my goal was to keep him up all day – I think he has got his days and nights mixed up – like the kids did as babies! I did succeed by going to the Farmer’s Market then Ikea. We had a good day, all in all.
I am really frustrated with him and while I realize some of what is going on is not under his control, that doesn’t stop me from getting short-tempered. He decided far too soon, at least in my opinion, to stop taking the pills so I guess I am blaming him for not sleeping.
I think he may be suffering from depression so I talked to him about it. Since then, things almost seem to be getting a bit better – maybe just realizing what is happening to him has helped.
He attended the Cardiac Centre’s exercise program’s information session today. He says he didn’t learn anything new but at least he went. Now he has to call them tomorrow to set up a time that will work for him to actually attend the classes.
Mel arranged for flowers to my Mom today for her birthday tomorrow. Mom called me tonight to tell me they had arrived and they are lovely. BUT, then she told me that she called Motor Vehicles and they have no record of her license being cancelled so she is planning to drive to the drug store and the grocery store tomorrow because she was really missing not having a car. I have called the hospital to ask them to look into this but now that she isn’t a patient, they may not be able to do anything. I told the nurse I talked to that there is nothing I can do from a distance and if she has an accident, they will have to deal with the fallout, not me.
My visit in 10 days time should be interesting! Wish me luck.
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